The white choc drink i had was quite sweet but yummy.. There's this lecturer teaching us on cancer now and i find myself being envious of her hot body! haha.. she is already a mother and yet she can make herself so stylish and slim.. i should go ask her how to do it..haha... i always want a better body but apparently ep dearie says i already have it?! hmmm.. Anyway, i just want to be healthy and slim.. exercise and eat properly.  I want my red blood cells back!! haha.. Have to do a blood test again ..pain wor!

 Sometimes i just wish i can concentrate and not get distracted so easily! Maybe i can do better if i just focus. Maybe this was the reason why i screwed up my A levels.. I have to first learn how to enjoy learning and discover the smart way to study. I am not satisfied.. always want something more..why can't i just concentrate on what i am supose to do now.. GOd help me! i don't want to dwell and think so much on unnecessary stuff.. Help me control my brain... i want good and useful knowledge to fill it.. not morbid and destructive thoughts.. I know i have been changing for the better.. At least GOD helps me find the purpose in life. I have hope .. I find myself useful.. 

 I am seriously thinking of getting internet again!!! i missed chatting with my friends online.. I miss city life.. i miss playing a fool with jing , ting and da jie, i miss coffee and meeting up sessions with hq, tab, ruijuan, jia and bets.. i miss mummy's sayang.. i miss doc sau's crappy jokes.. i miss spore!!

 Life is fufiling here.. uni is not too stressful here, I grow so much in my spiritual walk with GOd here, i lead a healthier lifestyle here, relationship with ep dearie is stablising,  my aunt and her family have been so good to me.. But it's nothing like home.. why can't i have best of both worlds???!!! Greedy me... hehe..

 I look forward to future.. Exciting exciting!! About what? i dunno.. heh..