I realised i always blog the good stuff that's happening in my life. Life here is good but as a human being i also feel down at times ... What to do.. haix..

 Anyway, i got back my blood test results! My red blood cells are back! hoho. Getting ready to cook for my dear disciplee (  joannies) tml evening. Cooking chicken rice at ep's place and i am inviting around 5 of them. Gosh! The last time i saw ben cooked it was nearly a year and a half ago. Not sure how it will turn out. Thank you ben for teaching me!

 I will be leaving for perth this coming friday.. can't wait to board the plane! Looking forward to learn more..

 I just read da jie's blog.. i think it's very funny how she describes her thoughts and daily life. It's a pity i can't write and express as well as her. Plus, i am lazy to blog.. heh

At yoshi's place now

 Just finished OCF.. TOday we ended early as tomorrow is the first day of exam. Ep dearie is having his first paper tml morning. My first paper is next friday. . only 2 papers this time but i have to hand up my major essay next tueday. Only half way done. .

 Should i go for convention? it's 700 bucks . One week in perth and not sure if i should go.. Pray about it. Should i work instead? i feel kinda bad that my sisters are working and studying at the same time and i am over here just studying and "learning how to enjoy life". I thank GOd for what he has bless me with. At the same time i feel bad that my sisters are not having the same privilege. I have come to a conclusion that i will study and do my best in order to show my family how i really am grateful for their support. They are so wonderful!!  i love you dad, mum, da jie, ting and jing!!! Miss you all!! WIll be home soon... 21st dec and we can all go for a family tour together!!!!!! Can't wait to spend time with you all!! BEIjing... snowing wor!

 I thank God.. i have a supportive family, i loving bf, wonderful friends back home and over here.. the ocf comm whom i am working with now are great and church people are so sweet.  My aunt and her family are so good to me too. How blessed i am.

 I always have to keep reminding myself about all these blessings as i always take them for granted and focus on what is not pleasant to me at times. Human nature..

Today is the start of our uni's study break...

 Waiting for ep dearie to finish gym and I just had my comm meeting. Really refreshing to have the comm meeting as we pray and share and encourage each other!! Can't wait to cut my hair later.. dunno how it will turn out though..

 I love saturdays! It's a day where i can just spend some time with EP dearie and not care about anything. Gotta plan my time wisely from now till exam! Seems to have alot to study for anatomy. God please help me concentrate and retain what i study.

 I need to find a way to post more photos on my blog. Apparently, betty likes the one i posted!

 The white choc drink i had was quite sweet but yummy.. There's this lecturer teaching us on cancer now and i find myself being envious of her hot body! haha.. she is already a mother and yet she can make herself so stylish and slim.. i should go ask her how to do it..haha... i always want a better body but apparently ep dearie says i already have it?! hmmm.. Anyway, i just want to be healthy and slim.. exercise and eat properly.  I want my red blood cells back!! haha.. Have to do a blood test again ..pain wor!

 Sometimes i just wish i can concentrate and not get distracted so easily! Maybe i can do better if i just focus. Maybe this was the reason why i screwed up my A levels.. I have to first learn how to enjoy learning and discover the smart way to study. I am not satisfied.. always want something more..why can't i just concentrate on what i am supose to do now.. GOd help me! i don't want to dwell and think so much on unnecessary stuff.. Help me control my brain... i want good and useful knowledge to fill it.. not morbid and destructive thoughts.. I know i have been changing for the better.. At least GOD helps me find the purpose in life. I have hope .. I find myself useful.. 

 I am seriously thinking of getting internet again!!! i missed chatting with my friends online.. I miss city life.. i miss playing a fool with jing , ting and da jie, i miss coffee and meeting up sessions with hq, tab, ruijuan, jia and bets.. i miss mummy's sayang.. i miss doc sau's crappy jokes.. i miss spore!!

 Life is fufiling here.. uni is not too stressful here, I grow so much in my spiritual walk with GOd here, i lead a healthier lifestyle here, relationship with ep dearie is stablising,  my aunt and her family have been so good to me.. But it's nothing like home.. why can't i have best of both worlds???!!! Greedy me... hehe..

 I look forward to future.. Exciting exciting!! About what? i dunno.. heh..

 

hee.. missing in action..

  i got my blood test result back this morning. Low in iron level so i have to take iron pills for a month. Today is considered the last few days of my mid term break. Didn't feel like a break as the past 1 weeks plus had been quite hectic and eventful.

 Anyway, for those who don't know what the blood test is all about.. i shall elaborate the story. Apparently i went to red cross for blood donation a week ago and they rejected me as they found out that i have low blood pressure and low hemoglobin level. Therefore i was sent to my uni's medical centre to have a more precise blood test. It was not very pleasant as being someone who can get quite negative, i tend to think of the worst. I was thinking that the worst blood disease is leukemia and it was quite scary when i thought i had some of the symptoms. Anyway, darling had been very supportive and encouraging throughout everything. Always trying to cheer me up. Thanks dear! YOu are great. Very touched when you actually said you will still marry me if i get leukemia. haha.. My friends had been wonderful too.. Thank you all for your prayers! Sorry to let my aunt and mum worry. hmm.. During the time when i was waiting for the blood test results, i got abit scare. Thank GOd for his words have been comforting me.

 Apart from this , i had been trying to prepare for my church's priase and worship night. It's tomorrow night!! Finally!! -after hours and hours of practises. Then at this same time, the new ocf committee also took over. Me being the follow up coordinator has to start my job by " establishing" the follow up sub com. They are the carebears (gals) and sheep counters (guys) . A total of 13 people. Quite exciting.. but i got so tired that i couldn't fully experience the excitment.

 Project meetings and abit of studying was done but i need to buck up! Exams in 5 weeks time..

 So much had been going on.. Easy to recall them now but hard to just type out everything when i am experiencing them..

  Looking forward to this weekend .. esp sunday.. it's darling and my 1st anniversary.. Don't think we will do much but just rest and had a good dinner.. we both need to rest and sleep more.. haix.. overworking.. haha
 

I led worship yesterday in church. Was praying about what to share when i woke up and i had some idea. However, i didn't  follow what i was supposed to say when i saw so many visitors that morning in church. Outcome? - i ended up longwinded and out of point. God is trying to teach me how i should just say and do what ever i had prayed and prepared irregardless of the circumstances. I have learnt.. GOd pls forgive me.

 Ep Dearie and i went to watch a movie after church. We had 2 free tickets from our dear friend shihui. We wanted to watch "unleashed" but it wasn't screening and in the end we watched " SIn city". Horrible show... gruesome scenes and naked women etc... no wonder the title. DOn't think it was entertaining!!  Well.. well..

Arranging to meet 2 lecturers this thurs and fri. Planning to enquire more about the vacation research programme for end of this year. They are under the public health department. Will be asking them about their research interests and what are the criteria to get accepted.

Can't wait for end of the year!! i am going to beijing!! hohoho... family trip is always fun.. looking forward to spend time with my family! Misss them lots....  

 Have not been upating my blog..

 lazy..

 there are no major events currently that really takes up alot of my time but everyday i just have things to do. Be it assignments, reading, preparing for church and ocf, spending time with friends and of course Darling Ep. He's busy busy now.. heh..

 We just had a major Evenglical Night aka musical on sat. It was good especially when i just take part and helped them on that day itself. At the backstage singing for siew wai, ushering and holding tags and go around during refreshment time to let people know that they can approach me if they wanna know more about God. It was really a good ezxperience and THank GOd that at least 6 people accepted Christ!

 As for now, our church is preparing for the upcoming praise and worship night! Looking forward to it!

 Just reached uni one hour ago and i received a voucher to get a free regular drink from the bean bar that has just opened today!

Obviously, me being the typical kia shu singaporean will definitely rush off to claim the free drink.. hmm.. when i reached there it was quite crowded but not as bad as i had expected. In my mind , i was imagining a picture of how there would be a very long queue and maybe there might be some unpleasant people. A scene which is quite common in singapore especially when there are free stuff! heh.. Well, turn out that the people who were at the bean bar were very pleasant as we waited patiently for our drinks. The service was fast and in less than 5 mins i got my hazalnut chai tea! It was kinda sweet but i still like it. Ep dearest hated the smell of the chai tea when i ordered it at gloria jeans a few weeks back. He made a comment saying that the chai smells like his granny's room due to the herbal scent. After that i simply refused to drink chai as i didn't want to be associated with "old". haha..

COme to think of it, I shall just age gracefully!! 21 sounds young.. hopefully i look like my age now.. People always thought i am in my early 20s when in fact at that time i was only in my teens.. heh..what to do! ?!   Too mature looking...

Today is kinda cold compared to teh last few days.. i like weekends.. although i may be like a normad carrying a heavy bag and sleeping over at friends' place but i simply enjoy their companyand hospitality! (Hope they don't find me a pest) haha.. Thanks to Yoshi dearie who has kindly allow me to sleep over almost every friday for the past few months and our "sherperd - joanne" will come and feed us with God's word on sat morning. Then on saturday i would bunk at dear Elaine's room in a hostel whenever i have to worship lead in church on sundays. All the gals' talk i always enjoy when i sleep over and catch up with them.

This semester, i have found 2 other sweeties who kindly allow me to stay over on friday and sat..
They are joannies (my funky disciple aka coursemate) and siew wai( the upcoming ocf president) . Well, i will rotate every week so that i won't bother them too frequently and i can catch up with them once in a while. Staying too far away and having not so frequent public transport could be troublesome and unsafe especially at night but GOd has turned all these to something beautiful! Thank YOu Father in heaven..

 First week of uni is really slack.. kinda like it though.. heh 
 
Just read tab's, Jia's and Bet's blogs.. Interesting to keep myself updated with their lives.. Miss you lots hq dearie!!! Know what.. i dreamt of you all last night but i can't remember what the dream was about..  Miss you gals back home.

Spring is coming.. can't wait to see all the beautiful flowers blooming again! Adelaide is a nice place even though it's abit slow moving but i think the uni life here suits me as there is time to "smell the roses." 

Maybe it's just me.. how i used to be so unhappy, worried and stressed all the time as i didn't see the beauty of life but just exams and all the past hurts that i kept in my heart since childhood. A change of environment does help and the fact that God has always been leading and guiding me to change me to who i am now. I don't think i am the best person in this world but i can safely say i am more joyful, confident and learining how to enjoy life as i see the purpose of life.

Thank God for my family, friends especially hq dearest, doc sau, ben, ep dearie... not to mention all the rest whom i know and had spend ups and downs with.. The list will be too long if i mention everyone but i do keep all of you in prayer. I believe GOd brought all of you into my life for a reason.
There will be a day when i can see the full picture that God has already painted.

 As for now,I like to keep myself occupied. Studying, serving in ocf and church. Spending time with ep and calling home once awhile to my family. Emailing / Smsing/ reading the blogs of my dear friends back home. I just realised how i love to be in contact with people and being able to be there for them if they need help or a listening ear. However, i still need to learn how to love people closest to me and not take them for granted. For now, i think darling ep is the one getting all my nonsense.. haha.. Thank You for being patient with my moodiness and coldness at times. Hope that we can support and help each other grow in the years to come!  It's a fact that as we grow older we are moulded to have our own identities. We know what we want in life and what is it that can make us happy. AS we grow older we might become less idealistic as nothing is so perfect in people and in life. I sound so old.... arghhhh... haha